...-=Taking My Time=-...

I've learnt how to keep myself busy and I'm quite happy with myself doing it. I have enrolled myself to Hatha Yoga and Meditation Classes again and it is really doing the job of keeping myself occupied. I haven't been thinking about the boys... and it's great! I am more focued and more relaxed and more calm and collected, more centered. I dont think much anymore, I dont complain about life anymore and I have learned to appreciate everything in life now... whether be a positive or a negative experience. My life isnt so easy... Life isnt easy in general. You can ask anybody and no one would tell you that they have an easy life. But I am happy... like some people who have big problems... they are happy... but it's probably because they are content and they have learnt how to live in the present. It's not easy.. sometimes the pasy haunts me... sometimes the future scares and intimidates me.. but I try to shake those thoughts away... Living in the present is a lot more complicated, but if you learn... you will see how happy you will be. I've learnt not to have much expectations of others.. from myself.. that things happens for a reason... I have learnt to accept my life.. that it is not easy.. but it can also be less complicated. That I can be happy... That I can be content.

I'm just taking my time now... Cos I know in the end... life... my life will be the biggest accomplishment I would ever have lived... the greatest battle that I've ever won... The greatest experience I have ever lived!!!

Carpe Diem!!!

...-=Taking My Time=-...

I've learnt how to keep myself busy and I'm quite happy with myself doing it. I have enrolled myself to Hatha Yoga and Meditation Classes again and it is really doing the job of keeping myself occupied. I haven't been thinking about the boys... and it's great! I am more focued and more relaxed and more calm and collected, more centered. I dont think much anymore, I dont complain about life anymore and I have learned to appreciate everything in life now... whether be a positive or a negative experience. My life isnt so easy... Life isnt easy in general. You can ask anybody and no one would tell you that they have an easy life. But I am happy... like some people who have big problems... they are happy... but it's probably because they are content and they have learnt how to live in the present. It's not easy.. sometimes the pasy haunts me... sometimes the future scares and intimidates me.. but I try to shake those thoughts away... Living in the present is a lot more complicated, but if you learn... you will see how happy you will be. I've learnt not to have much expectations of others.. from myself.. that things happens for a reason... I have learnt to accept my life.. that it is not easy.. but it can also be less complicated. That I can be happy... That I can be content.

 

I'm just taking my time now... Cos I know in the end... life... my life will be the biggest accomplishment I would ever have lived... the greatest battle that I've ever won... The greatest experience I have ever lived!!!

 

Carpe Diem!!!

...-=Good Lesson - Great Advice=-...

I've finished reading Dan Millman's book called "Way of the Peaceful Warrior" and I just want to quote something that he has said in the book which I totally agree with and a firm believer of it. I thought it would be nice to share it with all of you as it is something that we all need to learn and know about.

 

Hope you like it as much as I did...

 

 

"There is no need to search; achievement leads to nowhere. It makes no difference at all, so just be happy NOW ! Love is the only reality of the world, because it is all One, you see. And the only laws are paradox, humour and change. There is no problem, never was, and never will be. Release your struggle, let go of your mind, throw away your concerns, and relax into the world. No need to resist life; just do your best. Open your eyes and see that you are far more than you imagine. You are the world, you are the universe; you are yourself and everyone else, too! It's all the marvelous Play of God. Wake up, regain your humour. Don't worry, you are already free!"

                                                                                                                      

                                                                                                                                                                                       -Dan Millman-"Way of The Peaceful Warrior"

...-=Longest Survey I Have Answered=-...

1. Slept naked? yes

2. Taken a shower with someone? yes

3. Made out with a member of the same sex? yes

4. Drove a car? yes

5. Stole anything? no

6. Been in love? yes

7. Been dumped? yes

8. Stole money from a friend/family member? nope

9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? yes

10. Been in a fist fight? slap fight

11. Snuck out of your/someones house? yes... younger years...

12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? yes...

13. Been arrested? no

14. Hugged a stranger? yes... new years eve most times and my birthdays-ALL THE TIME!!!

15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? yes

16. Left your house with out telling your parents? yes

17. Had a crush style? ie; he's my crush but i'll pretend that i hate him?

28. Cheated while playing a game? not really....

29. Been lonely? yes... but its only normal

30. Kissed more than 4 people in one night? nope.... 2 guys yes...

31. Been to a club? yes

32. Felt an earthquake? yes

33. Touched a snake? no

34. Ran a red light? no

35. Been suspended from school? no

36. Had detention? yes

37. Been in a car accident? yes

38. Hated the way you look? sometimes

39. Made yourself throw up? too drunk... feel sick... ughhhh....

40. Crawled through a window? yes

41. Been lost? me lost?! yes... in Spain and in London!!! lol!!!

42. Been to the opposite side of the country? yes! I love Spain...

43. Felt like dying? before...

44. Cried yourself to sleep? Yes... just recently.... like uhmm last night.... :(

46. Sang karaoke? yes

47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? what was that..?? No sex this year?!! Lol!!!

48. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? yes! Lol!!!

49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? no....

50. Kissed in the rain? yes

51. Sang in the shower? when i still used to live by myself!

52. Made love in a car? yes... tee hee......

53. Had a dream that you married someone?i'll marry "him" one day....

54. Glued your hand to something? yes....

55. Got your tongue stuck to a Fridge/Freezer? no

62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? no... but i jumped at the rock pool at bondi naked! lol!!!

63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? hmm... then you'll say i'm a luv-o again!!!

64. Broken a/some bone/s? no

65. Been easily amused? by Chewie most times!!!

66. Laugh so hard you cried? yesss!!!!!

67. Mooned/flashed someone? yes! lol

68. Cheated on a test? yes.... tee hee......

69. Forgotten someone's name? last Friday *hey Anna! and i was like hey... uhmmm do i know you? then he said: it's Chris... we work together! You sit opposite me!* LMAO!!!!

71. Done something dumb while drunk? yes! like jump stark naked at the rock pool.... not knowing how to swim... at 10pm...!!!!

78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? nope

79. Smoked pot/done any sort of drugs? i've tried the occassional stuff....

80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? yes... but only cos he was cheating on me too!

81. Celebrate the 4th of July? why?!!? whats so special about it??? how about 26 Jan instead?!!

82. Thrown strange objects? puncher and stapler at someone

83. Felt like killing someone? yes!!!!!

84. Thought about running away? i've done that! Lol!!!

85. Ran away? yes...

86. Got a piercing? Yes

87. Cut your own hair? yes

89. Made a parent cry? yes

90. Cried over someone? yes.. most of the time!

91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? what the hell are sharpies?!!

92. Dated someone more than once? of course! thats what you call going out with someone right=BF/GF?!!

93. Had/Have a dog? Oh!!! I love my dogs!!!! I miss Jodie!!!

94.Wanted someone but could never have them? I like Him....


I AM: hapy I went to yoga class today... I felt good after....

I WANT: to have Chewie back soon... but can wait... :)

I HAVE: good friends and a loving family

I WISH: I was still in Spain but this time with my girlfriends....

I HATE: being labeled as a sex object! *sighs*

I MISS: Chewie

I FEAR: not having kids

I HEAR: big bucks coming!

I SEARCH: for inner peace and contentment

I REGRET: nothing

I LOVE: my family, friends and Chewie

I ACHE: for.... more shoes

I ALWAYS: think about going back to Spain

I AM NOT: perfect.... but always right! Hahaha!!!!

I DANCE: when happy, pissed and when I hear groove armada!

I SING: happy and sad songs

I CRY: over silly things and when Chewie and I argue about my silly-ness and craziness

I WRITE: Chewie's name on every paper that I see at work

I WIN: most times.... at anything..

I LOSE: interest at really boring things and people

I NEED: to be more more patient and calm and understanding

I SHOULD: exercise and eat healthy all the time


[YES OR NO]

You keep a diary: used to... have my blog now

You have a secret journal: used to....

You set your watch a few minutes fast: i think its either 5 or 10 minutes ahead

You bite your fingernails: no

You believe in love: yes.... i'm a believer!



[DO YOU]

Take a shower everyday: yes

Want to get married: yes

Have any tattoos/where?: no

Piercings/where?: ears


[FAV]

NUMBER: 10

COLOR: yellow

DAY: fridays

MONTH: May

SONG: all of my life by For Real

SEASON: I love summer at the costa del sol....

SPORT: soccer

DRINK: red wine, and spanish wines... healthy drink-carrot juice

VEGGIE: anything except for eggplant!

FRUIT: watermelon and bannana

FAST FOOD: not really a big fan... though i dont mind the occassional oporto's



[IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU]

HELPED SOMEONE? counseled Anita

BOUGHT SOMETHING? yoga clothes

GOTTEN SICK? after eating pizza hut last monday x(

GONE TO THE MOVIES? Sunday with Mike

GONE OUT FOR DINNER? not lately...

SAID "I LOVE YOU"? to Chewie

WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? everyday.... proposals!!

TALKED TO AN EX? haha!! every single day... morning, afternoon and night!

MISSED AN EX? I miss Chewie.....

WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? my blog-yes

TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU HAD A CRUSH ON? I still like Mike

MISSED SOMEONE? yes... Chewie

HUGGED SOMEONE? Mike

 

KISSED SOMEONE? Mike

FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? nope

FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? nope


[WOULD YOU EVER]

1. Eat a bug? nope!

2. Bungee jump? nope!

3. Hang glide? Yes

4. Kill someone? thats too violent

5. Have sex with someone you don't love? only if its johnny depp or jude law!

6. Kiss someone of the same sex? yes-done it before... a few times actually!

7. Parachute from a plane? Yes... done it and will do it again!!!

8. Walk on hot coals? wouldnt mind

9. Go out with someone for their looks? when i was young i used to do that a lot!

10. For their reputation? nope

11. Be a vegetarian? i tried... but i love steak and seafood!

12. Wear plaid with stripes? oh gosh no!!!

13. Instant Message a stranger guess? i think so....

14. Sing karaoke? yes

15. Get drunk? yes

16. Shoplift? nope

17. Run a red light? yes

...-=Skype=-...

I love Skype! It's great using it! The fact that I can call my friends overseas for free and sms them for a few cents.. Yay!!! It was nice talking to Carolina again (hello darling!) and will be chatting with my friends again later tonight (morning in Spain).

...-=The Mostt Depressing Day- V-Day=-...

I've been trying to stay away from the computer as knowing myself... I'll be doing this! Loath about this very stupid day! Ok... it shouldn't be no big deal! So what if it's Valentines Day?!! But seriously, I reckon we should stop celebrating this day... have you ever wondered how cruel this day is... how many people suffer on this very day... how many people have commited suicide on this very day?!! Most single people that I've spoken to has said that V-Day is the most depressing day ever.. worst than Christmas and New Years! I have to agree... though this is my first V-day as a single girl... I've never really had a decent V-day even when I was dating someone! It's the most over-rated occassion we ever celebrate! It's just funny to see a girl struggling to get on a busy and packed train co her bf sent her a big bunch of flowers... or a big box of roses which is actually way too big for her to carry!!!! Valentine's day is so stupid and I hate it!!!!

 

I've never been a V-day person..... I have V-day!!! I hate 14 February!!! Seriously... people shouldn't be just showing their loved ones how special they are on just a single day... if you love someone... you'll show them and make them feel like it's Valentines day everyday!!!!

 

Bah humbag!!!! 

 

From Anna.... the girl who hates V-day!!!

...-=Naughty Stuff=-...

I did something very silly/naughty but I cant tell you...

Only Katerina knows....

 

Have I told you... I dont regret doing it though...

...-=Dreading the Happy V-Day=-...

Tomorrow is the day dedicated to lovers and some silly people who think they have to have a lover on this particularly over rated day. I believe if it's truly special it should be a public holiday (ie; Christmas, Easter, New Years). Anyway... since I dont want to be a kill joy and I dont want to be dubbed as the person who's bitter about Valentines Day (I trust that I am not alone on this....) I want to greet my friends who have a "special someone" to celebrate this "Hallmark & Roses Only Day" (they are the ones who are making profit out of this silly day!!!)

 

...-=Happy Valentines Day!!!=-...

...-=Curtain's Have Closed?=-...

So... is the story between Chewie and I really over? Hmm... some people would think so.

But it's so hard to tell, specially when we both know that there are some really strong feelings still there.

 

Really... only time can tell..

 

But for now... I'll just enjoy the break... from all the dramas...

 

 

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Take A Bow

Madonna

Take a bow, the night is over
This masquerade is getting older
Light are low, the curtains down
Theres no one here
[theres no one here, theres no one in the crowd]
Say your lines but do you feel them
Do you mean what you say when theres no one around [no one around]
Watching you, watching me, one lonely star
[one lonely star you dont know who you are]

Chorus:

Ive always been in love with you [always with you]
I guess youve always known its true [you know its true]
You took my love for granted, why oh why
The show is over, say good-bye

Say good-bye [bye bye], say good-bye

Make them laugh, it comes so easy
When you get to the part
Where youre breaking my heart [breaking my heart]
Hide behind your smile, all the world loves a clown
[just make em smile the whole world loves a clown]
Wish you well, I cannot stay
You deserve an award for the role that you played [role that you played]
No more masquerade, youre one lonely star
[one lonely star and you dont know who you are]

(chorus, repeat)

Say good-bye [bye bye], say good-bye

All the world is a stage [world is a stage]
And everyone has their part [has their part]
But how was I to know which way the storyd go
How was I to know youd break
[youd break, youd break, youd break]
Youd break my heart

Ive always been in love with you
[Ive always been in love with you]
Guess youve always known
You took my love for granted, why oh why
The show is over, say good-bye

(chorus)

Say good-bye [bye bye], say good-bye
Say good-bye

...-=Life is Beautiful=-...

I have a love/hate relationship with Sydney... er.. let me rephrase that.

 

I have a love/hate relationship with life in GENERAL!

 

Sometimes I hate the world (not myself!) that I just feel like disappearing

But then something really good would come along and then I'll start thinking...

"Gosh.. it's good to be alive!"

 

I'm a really positive person... well I try to be as positive as I can be in every situation actually.

But I learnt that you can never be happy with anything if you are NOT happy with yourself.

That goes with loving too!

 

So far... I'm happy. Not extremely happy... but sorta content.

I'm happy cos I met new friends like Paolo, Shane and David... theyr'e really nice and cool people.

I'm happy cos I got the job that I sorta wanted... well, there's another one which I need to attend for a interview (ATO)!

I'm happy cos I got out of the Telco business...

I'm happy cos my bestfriends are still there for me... even though B is now married, I can still talk to him.

I'm happy cos my family is so very supportive of me.

I'm happy cos so far my life is just great....

 

I'm not saying that my life is perfect though...

It's far from it!

I'm sad in some ways cos Chewie's upset with me.

Sad cos I live so far away

Sad cos I'm leaving my friends at CJ's.

Sad cos sometimes I get so bored I dont know what to do with my life.

 

I just know how to balance everything now though....

 

I'm happy... not extremely joyous about life in general.. not that content...

But happy cos even though my life can be a bit complicated..

My life is absolutely beautiful... and I'm blessed!