...-=The Buddhist In Me=-...

I have come into terms that death isn't really the end but the beginning of a new chapter - of a happier stage of a soul.

My best friend's Dad passed away last night and she is distraught... the fact that she hasn't seen him for almost 15 years and have only spoken to him just recently (last month) after not talking to him for more than 10 years. Well, not really her fault but she's a victim of a messy divorce and ended up with her mother (who is a nut case!). I really don't know how to tell her that she should be happy that her Father's now in a happier place where there is no suffering and sadness.... yes, this is the Buddhist in me speaking although I am Catholic who was brought up to believe that there is "heaven" and "hell". I beg to differ though.... I believe that we live in a place where there is deep suffering, injustice, selfishness and a whole lot more pain. I have come to realise that once you have "crossed over" this phase that we call "life", then there will be no more of the suffering, sadness, loneliness and pain that we feel while living this life. We then (I assume) move on to a happier place called "Nirvana" {nirvana, enlightenment (Hinduism and Buddhism) the beatitude that transcends the cycle of reincarnation; characterized by the extinction of desire and suffering and individual consciousness}. It's not easy for some of us to come to terms with death... I mean, if one of my dear parents do "pass over", I'll be deeply saddened. It will be a great loss I know and I will be so very sad... and I will cry... but the thought that they will be in a place where they will no longer feel hurt and pain and will no longer suffer will give me peace of mind. I would want to keep them with me for as long as I can though cos I love them so very much. But.... yes, death really isnt a loss but just another stage where our soul moves to a happier and peaceful place....

I have accepted the fact that death really isnt death but another way of being re-born.

I've said my piece... but I'm praying for my dear best friend for her to have more strength... and for her father that he'll have a happy journey in his new sould adventure.

...-=So, Here I Go Again=-...

It's been a while... I know! And trust me, every single day I've been itching to write on my blog... thinking, "gosh... this is a must-blog-experience!" But work has been keeping me busy, emotionally unstable, insecure and crazy. It's only been the past week that I have sort of settled down with my emotions again. Having Monkey Moo stay with me for the past few weeks also stopped me from writing my thoughts as it's just difficult I suppose... but he has been good though... He's a really domesticated guy. Has been a really good company and well... I enjoy the "perks" that comes together with living with him.

So... where do I start?!

I miss Mark.

I miss his company too. Whilst Monkey's here with me, I find that I dont get to spend much time with Mark as I tend to do more things with Monkey Moo - which I do enjoy and love. But I miss my banter with Mark. The way he makes me laugh, his side hugs and when he goes all crazy and stuff. I miss how he lectures me and leaves me alone and not question my silence. I haven't seen him for almost a month now, though we talk everyday and for now that is okay.

Work... hmmmm. Work has been the biggest challenge of my life right now. I know I shouldn't dwell on it, but sometimes it can be such a drag! I am currently so unstable with everything. Emotionally, physically. I havent been meditating nor exercising. Tomorrow, I have finally taken a day off work and I promised myself that I will go for a long walk to the beach, read my book and relax and not think or worry of anything. I need to do that... I need to detox my mind and soul.

I just got a Blackberry Storm! :) That's good news! That means I can actually blog wherever I am!!! :)

So... I'll keep you all posted my dears!!!

Sorry... my entry tonight's a bit "bleh!" I'm not feeling my 100% at the moment....