Sunday, March 25, 2007

...-=One Crazy Ride=-...

It's been a while since I've last written on my blog. Probably cos I have been so busy with work that most times I just feel like unwinding and relaxing with friends. I dont feel like staring at the PC after work but just to spend time with friends chilling out and talking about our lives in general. But a lot of things has happened. I have met new friends who are wonderful and great. People who appreciates me and I appreciate them myself. People who I can relate with.. not superficial.. people who live their lives to the fullest and people who values their lives. A lot of things has changed too. I am not speaking with Mark currently. Have stopped speaking to Mike already. I still love Mark though I thought I should give myself a break from all the craziness for now. I just want to live my life without any complications. Work enough is crazy.. but I love work! I love and enjoy what I'm doing right now. It gets crazy from time to time but I dont mind work being crazy... it works out better that way- I dont get bored! But I'm leaving craziness to work... I dont like craziness in my life. Craziness was a thing of the past. I still enjoy having a few drinks with my friends... dancing with my friends... As long as no one's getting hurt.... I dont like playing mind games anymore. I dont like the feeling of confusion. I just want to be happy for now. I just want to enjoy my life right now... and always. I love the fact that right now I feel happy when I'm around my friends... my family. I dont like the fact that Mark's acting really strange right now but I dont want to dwell on it right now. I am hoping that he's just going through a phase though as he has been acting quite strange lately. I dont want to think about it right now as it just upsets me. For now.. I will just focus on my life. Focus on maintaning the balance. As long as I am not hurting anyone... as long as everyone around me is happy... I'm happy. Things are ok... well most things anyway. I am loving my life.. I am living my life. I will be re-reading my favourite book... The Power of Now as I do feel the need for it. I wish that everone is happy... that everyone is as content as me.