...-=Lost=-...

I've been back for almost 3 weeks now and I still feel so lost here in Sydney. Is it just me or is it really true how I feel about some people and some situations here at the moment. Well, at this moment, I feel as if I've lost interest with most of my friends. I dont feel that they need me or as if I need them to be around me to be happy. I feel as if I made a poor judgement about England and I should've stayed... That I should've given myself the chance to be scared and be really out of my comfort zone... I wonder what would've happened. I  know for a fact that I'd be alone for Christmas if I was in London as my Aussie friends have now gone back here in Australia. I'd be sad and really really home-sick that I'd probably be crying my eyes out and would be booking the first flight back to Sydney. But you see... my expectations of people, events, situations (the weather!) has somehow failed me. None of these things are making me feel happy. But then again what is happiness...? It is just a state of mind and not of being. I should stop thinking... but instead observe what the mind is doing. The mind is making me feel so unsettled right now it's somehow scary! I want to live in the NOW again... I miss the presence of my BEING. I honestly have to learn how to chill out once again and just relax. At the end of the day... all I want is the peace and contentment that I had when I was away.... I guess I just have to learn how to practice my zen skills in the real world... where I need it the most.

 

Good Luck to me!!!

 

One lost Bannana......

...-=What a Wonderful World=-...

 I see trees of green, red roses too
I see them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself what a wonderful world.

I see skies of blue and clouds of white
The bright blessed day, the dark sacred night
And I think to myself what a wonderful world.

The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people going by
I see friends shaking hands saying how do you do
They're really saying I love you.

I hear babies crying, I watch them grow
They'll learn much more than I'll never know
And I think to myself what a wonderful world
Yes I think to myself what a wonderful world.

...-=Bernie's Special Day=-...

At 12:30 PM today, my Best friend Bernie will be Belinda's husband. I'm so happy for him to finally meet someone who will be with him forever. I wish them eternal bliss and love that will be forevermore....


Today, I'll be celebrating with them and will try not cry happy tears as I dont want to ruin my make-up.







Bernie and Belinda... wishing you both a love that will last forever....

I love you both!!!!

...-=Off To A Good Start=-...

I sometimes wonder what to do with my life and lucky for a really long break from Sydney and my friends, I now realize what I really need to do. I have already enough "Me Time" spent so it's all just a matter of taking action to everything that I've thought of doing whilst away on holidays. I have to admit, some of my friends makes me feel bored and somehow their problems makes me feel down too. They dont really give me positive energy but I dont want to detach myself from them cos they are my friends. Instead I just try to spend more of my time doing things that are more productive. I have been very busy organizing everything in my life. Making sure that I have my priorities right. I'm sure things will work out in the end... then I can party later. I ahve no problems with Boys and the things that comes with them... so maybe I should really just leave things the way they are now... I'm happy being single... therefore should just leave the way things should be. Besides, I believe that if it's meant to happen... it'll happen.

I'm really off to a good start! Happy with the way things are going too...

...-=Hottest DJ: Bob Sinclair=-...

Who would've thought that Bob Sinclair is French?!!? I'm not a French lover person but when i found out that Bob Sinclair was French... hey... what else can I do... but still like him! I reckon he's so HOT!!!!

...-=24 Days till Christmas=-...

Oh... it's almost that time of the year once again. Thank God i dont have a boyfriend! Otherwise i would've been spending too much moola again! Lol!!! I have so many expenses this month... well, as most of you know I just got back from a very long holiday in expensive Europe! Then I have to get Bernie a wedding present, buy a dress for his wedding and of course... the matching shoes! Also have to save money for bond for my flat(-still looking!) and of course buy family and friends Christmas presents. I'm so funny cos I normally buy the most expensive gift for my boyfriend, maybe I should stop doing that!

Anyway, I do believe that Christmas is for kids and I have submitted my application form to become a volunteer member of make wish foundation. This time I'd rather make other kids happy than make myself happy by buying more shoes... I honestly think that I do have enough pair (now 51 pairs in total! Yikes!!!) to wear. And as for my friends... you'll still get a lil something from me... but I will not be as extravagant as I used to be!

24 days before Christmas!!!! Better save more moola now!!!!

...-=I am GREEN!!!=-...

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