...-=Because I Love You=-...

No matter what challenges you're facing.. no matter how tough it can be sometimes, remember that no matter what happens, I'll be here for you and will love you for the rest of my life.

Through the good times and bad times monkey... Never forget that I love you and you are not alone.

...-=Can Loving Be So Tiring?=-...

I really want Michael to move back to Sydney soon. The longer he stays in Perth, the more he feels isolated and feel alone. I went out last night to my friend's birthday party and got home a bit more drunk than I normally am and because I was feeling a bit insecure and jealous about Michael moving to another girl's place, I decided to abuse him both by text and Skype. He never replied to any of them.

This afternoon, we had a little chat about it. He asked me why I was jealous to which I answered, it's normal - I get jealous every now and then. He then questioned our relationship & love for each other and his stability as a person how he's thinking that he can't make me happy... I had to reassure him that I love him and he makes me happy and he shouldn't be doubting that because whatever happens, may he be near or far, we will always be together and I will always be there for him.

After talking to him, I felt so heavy and drained. I love him, but we don't need dramas like this in our lives. It's hard enough that we are not in the same city and we don't need any other dramas to make our relationship more complicated.

I love him but tonight, I just cant deal with it. I am tired.

...-=Angels=-...

Some angels will come and go throughout your life, depending upon your circumstances and needs. But your core guardian angels will remain consistent. - Doreen Virtue

This is so true! And I'm so happy that my Angels- Archangel Michael & Michael Wells, have and will always be there for me.

I have been blessed with the most beautiful and loving people in my life. It is true what they say that after a while, no matter how tough things seems to be, it will all work out and be okay in the end.. because they are meant to be.

I love you my Monkey. Thank you for the love, the understanding and for having the faith in us.

...-=Buon Natale=-...

Merry Christmas everybody! :) I hope you've all had a good Christmas and have not eaten too much (highly unlikely!) hehehe.

My Christmas has been great! Well the lead up to it has been really good. Went to a really sexy & magical island in Fiji with my monkey after a few months of not seeing each other. Then Christmas eve was all about the kids with both Faye and Chelsea getting a lot of pressies from "Santa" as they've both been really good girls. Christmas day the family all went to Bella Vista as Tita Vic is staying with Tita Nini whilst she's out of palliative care for 2 days for Christmas (with the condition that "Pugante" will not be there.) And we had such a great time just seeing Tita Vic happy. I applied make up on her and made sure she looked pretty for Christmas. Tita Yeye, Tita Dulce together with Tito Jun Villaverde went to visit her too so that was good. :)

Monkey went home to Albury to spend time with his family at the farm but he will be back on the 28th December and we'll celebrate NYE together. He sent me an email saying he's had a ball spending time with his family and he'll be going fish camping with his brothers and nephews today and horse riding tomorrow then back to my arms the next! Yay!

So far, everything's been great... I mean if Kuya Ian and his family were here then it would've been perfect.

Anyway, wishing each one of you have had a great Christmas and New Year is just around the corner! ;)

...-=Moonshine=-...

I'm scared of losing myself to somebody else's world again and so sometimes I think I'm sabotaging my own relationships. As they say, relationships are both give and take.. never about compromise. But sometimes I worry that I am the one who's giving more and I don't think it's fair. Maybe I'm just being paranoid but this is how I really feel. As much as I love him it's too difficult to just give everything away. It was so easy before, but now... I don't know what's happened to me.

I love him, with all my heart. But I need to leave some for myself too. But I love him.. I really do.

Bless.

...-=And So The Story Goes=-...

That I love him..

And YES, that I would want to spend the rest of my life with him.

I love you my monkey moo.. I cant wait to have more beautiful years with you.. with lots of love and light. xxx

...-=Woooo!!!=-...

I am so in love with the most beautiful man that I know! :)

Thank you for being so kind, caring and sensitive.

For always being there for me.

For always listening to me.

For always just being you despite my craziness.

For always making me smile and laugh and burst into giggles.

For always reassuring me that it is okay to sometimes act silly too.

For sharing my passions with me.

For letting me be.

For letting me grow.

For letting me be a part of you.

For letting me share my love with you.

For letting me share my LIFE with you.

I love you. xxx