...-=Ivania Eliska "Vannia" Mliezivova=-...

A trooper... A true friend...

I will never forget the times... the crazy times we've had. The times when we have fits of laughter and giggles and the times when you just go crazy and drive "Massie" like a pyscho! I will never forget the time when we had our first fight... you pushed me! I pushed you back! I walked away... then you ran after me... I thought you were going to throw a punch, instead you hugged me. And you laughed! You said we were being silly. I yelled at you and called you a psycho... then you said "thanks bitch" and gave me a wink. Then drove off. You called afterwards asking if I'm still a weirdo! Then we both laughed.

You were one of the few people who understands me... Who gets my drift... We talk just by looking at each other... a nod, a raise of an eyebrow, a smirk, or even just a wink... we know it... we can tell. We dont have to say anything... we just click... connect.

How I'll miss you... I cant even imagine how it's going to be like without you. There will be a void... I will feel empty. But like what you've said... you will always be around. You will be the butterfly in the garden, the bird on the park... maybe even the fly on the beach? *I hear you laughing now... oh how sweet!*

Your journey's not about to end... it's just the beginning. Imagine being in a place with no worries... no pain... no suffering... no feeling of loneliness... no sadness... Just complete peace and serenity....

You need not worry about us... about me. I will be fine Vannie... I have you in my heart and you will always be.

Thank you for being there for me... for always caring... for always being so loving...

I love you Ivania Eliska Mliezivova (told you I know your full name!)... now and forever... you'll be in my heart...

May you have the peace and the comfort and serenity that you wish this Christmas....

No Goodbye's.... but till we meet again!!!

I love you... I will miss you...

...-=I Miss You=-...

I miss Marky so very much!!! I wish he'd come back from Thailand soon! So upset that I missed his call today and I really wanted to talk to him! I wish I didnt go to that party at Bungalow 8. I sort of feel bad cos I invited Paul to go and when he called me I wasnt there... freakin stupid ID! I wish I didnt look so young sometimes... but oh well... I just wish I didnt go in the first place then I would've spoken to Mark... I miss him so very much!!!

I love you MW!!!

...-=A Love Story Told=-...

Have you heard of the lady who died of a broken heart? It's a bitter-sweet story. A story that captured my heart - it made me cry. It was a story of a lady who loved with all her heart, she gave her all. She lost herself to LOVE. She did everything to keep his heart... keep his love. It was tragic really, cos in the end, love isnt everything. BUT you see, she doesnt see it like that! She sees love as the most beautiful thing that can happen to anyone, either you're the giver or the receiver. And I think it is true! I certainly agree! That LOVE can make you the happiest person around! I have loved before (and still do love him!) and it was a great feeling. Having butterflies in your stomach when someone mentions his name, feeling your cheeks warm up when you see the one you love, feeling their lips on your lips, hugging them tight that you feel their heartbeat, smelling their scent on your skin after a long embrace, hearing them laugh, seeing them smile... I can go on and on about it.....

Someone can go and act really silly when they are in-love (like the lady who died of a broken heart). You'd give yourself to that person... lose yourself... BUT do you think that matters? I have loved before (and still love him so very much!) and I know - I am aware... that I am being silly... but it doesn't matter. It doesn't bother me. I love him with all my heart not expecting to have anything back in return. I just want to love - for him to feel it... for him to know how special he means to me... that someone can truly love him for what he is and not want to change him. It's not easy... but when you love someone, you seem to over-look their short comings. You seem to understand that one particular thing that is really annoying about them. You seem to get every single thing about that person and not doubt it. Then you look back and you realise that... You've gone MILES for that one special person... do they ever realise?

I wish I can speak to that lady who died of a broken heart.... I want to know her story....

...-=The Up's and Down's of It All=-...

Someone has just told me this over Skype tonight:

"Anna, loving is not about who's right or wrong... it's not about you being hurt, or him being hurt... it's about looking into your self and asking your heart how to better love the other person.. it's about wanting what's best for the other person not yourself... it's about admitting mistakes and making up... it's about doing something for the person without expecting nothing... it's about being completely open..."loving is having your happiness in the other person... it's about looking at the other person and knowing to yourself that your happiness lies within his heart...

"the person meant for you is the person who'll love you even when there's no more reason to love you... for in your nothingness, the one meant for you will find what's loveable in you..."

...-=Dear M=-...

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else.
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than be safe and warm by myself.
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart.
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart.


The greatest time to really tell if you love someone is during the trying times... when there's no reason left to stay and every word is said and done... yet you still find that something to love in the person who's become part of your pain... love regains...

I really do...

...-=Bring Back The Warm Sunny Days=-...

It's been a while since I've posted something here. Hmm... well, nothing much has happened except for a job interview. I actually got the job - they just can't match my pay. Also, one of my closest friends is sick right now... but I'm sure she will pull through. I love her and I'm always praying for her. Marky is doing well... hopefully he'll have his surgery soon so he'll get better just in time for his travel to the UK to visit his Mum. I'm really hoping that he'll get better soon. Rough times mostly for everyone. Even the weather has been a bit shyte lately. Imagine having a 1.8 deg temperature in QLD?!!? It has been freezing here in Sydney too! Thank god for the sunshine. It was said that it was going to be raining this weekend but it hasn't so thank God for that! Everyone has been sick at work and at home... I have just recovered from a very bad flu. Hmmm... this has been the coldest winter so far! Looking forward to summer.....

...-=My Long Lost Tblog Was Found!!!=-...

I've always had a blog... since 2003. I was always online and was addicted to blogging. I remember one of my friends have told me before that I didn't care much about my life as I'm broadcasting it to the world to read... my answer was:"Who gives a f*ck?!!! If they don't like it, they don't have to read it." Funny how things have changed. It was a bit melancholic reading my old entries. Didn't even know that I had a blog before tblog (called ix.1space). Hmmm... My great adventures... and I thought they were gone. If you're curious and interested as to what I've done with my life before, here's the link:
http://anna629.tblog.com/archive/2003/12/

Don't tell me I didn't warn you!!!

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