People sometimes ask me how I do it? Why do I have so much patience? (Er... not really!) Why am I so forgiving? Why do I always see the good-side of the not-so-good people around me?
I only have one answer for you.... I am a positive person... I would like to be a happy person.
My life is not perfect though. I am the epitome of martyrdom! I don't like dramas- it seems to like me though. I tend to love people who dont love me. I tend to push away the people who cares for me. I tend to stick with people who drives me crazy. I tend to find too nice people a bit boring- though I appreciate their kindness though.
My friends... most of them... they dont understand why. From Vannia to Possum David... they all seem to wonder why? Or how I can do it.
Have you ever loved at all? Do you know what love is really? I do.
I love HIM. U-N-C-O-N-D-I-T-I-O-N-A-L-L-Y!!!!
That's no if's and but's. I sometimes question myself... but never get to have a doubt as to why I love him. He is a nice person. He is a lovely person. He makes me happy. Seldom makes me upset. A bit crazy at times. But a genuine person.
Mark means the world to me... and Vannia, you know how you were telling me before how you would give up your life for Gary... it's the same thing with him. Talk about bad habits... but he is not a bad habit. He has always been very positive. He hasn't made me do drugs, or hurt anybody. You just need to know the person... but you probably wont have the time. You dont really care much about him anyway.
F*ck having plans! Most times when you plan something it stuffs up anyway. I'm just going with the flow now. I am happy... but will be happier as soon as he gets better. That's whats important right now. And I do appreciate your prayers.
Let me be... just let me love him... there's nothing wrong with loving someone... After all... love is meant to be selfless... understanding... and unconditional....
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