...-=Long Time=-...

It's been a crazy long time since I've posted something here! Lots of exciting things happening too. I have moved out of my parent's house and now live in the city.. Check out the exciting view... I've also got cool flatmates... and have been learning how to play squash properly. Tonight whilst listening to Tom Jones (hmm... Possum David made us listen to it!) there were fireworks at the harbour and it was so pretty! Funny what fireworks do to me! Haha!!! The little pleasure of life....

Last night though I was a bit naughty. Went to this party at Argyle at the Rocks for Ministry of Sounds CD Launch and told Mark that I was there... they came along... Paul and Ben and him. I abandoned Paolo cos he was acting as if he was my bf. I ended up going home with Mark... well.. he went to my place and stayed for a bit... Naughty!!!

Anyway... there's more to it but I cant tell you now. I have to sleep... I have work tomorrow... Ciao... Ciao... Ciao...

...-=One Crazy Ride=-...

It's been a while since I've last written on my blog. Probably cos I have been so busy with work that most times I just feel like unwinding and relaxing with friends. I dont feel like staring at the PC after work but just to spend time with friends chilling out and talking about our lives in general. But a lot of things has happened. I have met new friends who are wonderful and great. People who appreciates me and I appreciate them myself. People who I can relate with.. not superficial.. people who live their lives to the fullest and people who values their lives. A lot of things has changed too. I am not speaking with Mark currently. Have stopped speaking to Mike already. I still love Mark though I thought I should give myself a break from all the craziness for now. I just want to live my life without any complications. Work enough is crazy.. but I love work! I love and enjoy what I'm doing right now. It gets crazy from time to time but I dont mind work being crazy... it works out better that way- I dont get bored! But I'm leaving craziness to work... I dont like craziness in my life. Craziness was a thing of the past. I still enjoy having a few drinks with my friends... dancing with my friends... As long as no one's getting hurt.... I dont like playing mind games anymore. I dont like the feeling of confusion. I just want to be happy for now. I just want to enjoy my life right now... and always. I love the fact that right now I feel happy when I'm around my friends... my family. I dont like the fact that Mark's acting really strange right now but I dont want to dwell on it right now. I am hoping that he's just going through a phase though as he has been acting quite strange lately. I dont want to think about it right now as it just upsets me. For now.. I will just focus on my life. Focus on maintaning the balance. As long as I am not hurting anyone... as long as everyone around me is happy... I'm happy. Things are ok... well most things anyway. I am loving my life.. I am living my life. I will be re-reading my favourite book... The Power of Now as I do feel the need for it. I wish that everone is happy... that everyone is as content as me.

...-=Taking My Time=-...

I've learnt how to keep myself busy and I'm quite happy with myself doing it. I have enrolled myself to Hatha Yoga and Meditation Classes again and it is really doing the job of keeping myself occupied. I haven't been thinking about the boys... and it's great! I am more focued and more relaxed and more calm and collected, more centered. I dont think much anymore, I dont complain about life anymore and I have learned to appreciate everything in life now... whether be a positive or a negative experience. My life isnt so easy... Life isnt easy in general. You can ask anybody and no one would tell you that they have an easy life. But I am happy... like some people who have big problems... they are happy... but it's probably because they are content and they have learnt how to live in the present. It's not easy.. sometimes the pasy haunts me... sometimes the future scares and intimidates me.. but I try to shake those thoughts away... Living in the present is a lot more complicated, but if you learn... you will see how happy you will be. I've learnt not to have much expectations of others.. from myself.. that things happens for a reason... I have learnt to accept my life.. that it is not easy.. but it can also be less complicated. That I can be happy... That I can be content.

I'm just taking my time now... Cos I know in the end... life... my life will be the biggest accomplishment I would ever have lived... the greatest battle that I've ever won... The greatest experience I have ever lived!!!

Carpe Diem!!!

...-=Taking My Time=-...

I've learnt how to keep myself busy and I'm quite happy with myself doing it. I have enrolled myself to Hatha Yoga and Meditation Classes again and it is really doing the job of keeping myself occupied. I haven't been thinking about the boys... and it's great! I am more focued and more relaxed and more calm and collected, more centered. I dont think much anymore, I dont complain about life anymore and I have learned to appreciate everything in life now... whether be a positive or a negative experience. My life isnt so easy... Life isnt easy in general. You can ask anybody and no one would tell you that they have an easy life. But I am happy... like some people who have big problems... they are happy... but it's probably because they are content and they have learnt how to live in the present. It's not easy.. sometimes the pasy haunts me... sometimes the future scares and intimidates me.. but I try to shake those thoughts away... Living in the present is a lot more complicated, but if you learn... you will see how happy you will be. I've learnt not to have much expectations of others.. from myself.. that things happens for a reason... I have learnt to accept my life.. that it is not easy.. but it can also be less complicated. That I can be happy... That I can be content.

 

I'm just taking my time now... Cos I know in the end... life... my life will be the biggest accomplishment I would ever have lived... the greatest battle that I've ever won... The greatest experience I have ever lived!!!

 

Carpe Diem!!!

...-=Good Lesson - Great Advice=-...

I've finished reading Dan Millman's book called "Way of the Peaceful Warrior" and I just want to quote something that he has said in the book which I totally agree with and a firm believer of it. I thought it would be nice to share it with all of you as it is something that we all need to learn and know about.

 

Hope you like it as much as I did...

 

 

"There is no need to search; achievement leads to nowhere. It makes no difference at all, so just be happy NOW ! Love is the only reality of the world, because it is all One, you see. And the only laws are paradox, humour and change. There is no problem, never was, and never will be. Release your struggle, let go of your mind, throw away your concerns, and relax into the world. No need to resist life; just do your best. Open your eyes and see that you are far more than you imagine. You are the world, you are the universe; you are yourself and everyone else, too! It's all the marvelous Play of God. Wake up, regain your humour. Don't worry, you are already free!"

                                                                                                                      

                                                                                                                                                                                       -Dan Millman-"Way of The Peaceful Warrior"

...-=Longest Survey I Have Answered=-...

1. Slept naked? yes

2. Taken a shower with someone? yes

3. Made out with a member of the same sex? yes

4. Drove a car? yes

5. Stole anything? no

6. Been in love? yes

7. Been dumped? yes

8. Stole money from a friend/family member? nope

9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? yes

10. Been in a fist fight? slap fight

11. Snuck out of your/someones house? yes... younger years...

12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? yes...

13. Been arrested? no

14. Hugged a stranger? yes... new years eve most times and my birthdays-ALL THE TIME!!!

15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? yes

16. Left your house with out telling your parents? yes

17. Had a crush style? ie; he's my crush but i'll pretend that i hate him?

28. Cheated while playing a game? not really....

29. Been lonely? yes... but its only normal

30. Kissed more than 4 people in one night? nope.... 2 guys yes...

31. Been to a club? yes

32. Felt an earthquake? yes

33. Touched a snake? no

34. Ran a red light? no

35. Been suspended from school? no

36. Had detention? yes

37. Been in a car accident? yes

38. Hated the way you look? sometimes

39. Made yourself throw up? too drunk... feel sick... ughhhh....

40. Crawled through a window? yes

41. Been lost? me lost?! yes... in Spain and in London!!! lol!!!

42. Been to the opposite side of the country? yes! I love Spain...

43. Felt like dying? before...

44. Cried yourself to sleep? Yes... just recently.... like uhmm last night.... :(

46. Sang karaoke? yes

47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? what was that..?? No sex this year?!! Lol!!!

48. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? yes! Lol!!!

49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? no....

50. Kissed in the rain? yes

51. Sang in the shower? when i still used to live by myself!

52. Made love in a car? yes... tee hee......

53. Had a dream that you married someone?i'll marry "him" one day....

54. Glued your hand to something? yes....

55. Got your tongue stuck to a Fridge/Freezer? no

62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? no... but i jumped at the rock pool at bondi naked! lol!!!

63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? hmm... then you'll say i'm a luv-o again!!!

64. Broken a/some bone/s? no

65. Been easily amused? by Chewie most times!!!

66. Laugh so hard you cried? yesss!!!!!

67. Mooned/flashed someone? yes! lol

68. Cheated on a test? yes.... tee hee......

69. Forgotten someone's name? last Friday *hey Anna! and i was like hey... uhmmm do i know you? then he said: it's Chris... we work together! You sit opposite me!* LMAO!!!!

71. Done something dumb while drunk? yes! like jump stark naked at the rock pool.... not knowing how to swim... at 10pm...!!!!

78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? nope

79. Smoked pot/done any sort of drugs? i've tried the occassional stuff....

80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? yes... but only cos he was cheating on me too!

81. Celebrate the 4th of July? why?!!? whats so special about it??? how about 26 Jan instead?!!

82. Thrown strange objects? puncher and stapler at someone

83. Felt like killing someone? yes!!!!!

84. Thought about running away? i've done that! Lol!!!

85. Ran away? yes...

86. Got a piercing? Yes

87. Cut your own hair? yes

89. Made a parent cry? yes

90. Cried over someone? yes.. most of the time!

91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? what the hell are sharpies?!!

92. Dated someone more than once? of course! thats what you call going out with someone right=BF/GF?!!

93. Had/Have a dog? Oh!!! I love my dogs!!!! I miss Jodie!!!

94.Wanted someone but could never have them? I like Him....


I AM: hapy I went to yoga class today... I felt good after....

I WANT: to have Chewie back soon... but can wait... :)

I HAVE: good friends and a loving family

I WISH: I was still in Spain but this time with my girlfriends....

I HATE: being labeled as a sex object! *sighs*

I MISS: Chewie

I FEAR: not having kids

I HEAR: big bucks coming!

I SEARCH: for inner peace and contentment

I REGRET: nothing

I LOVE: my family, friends and Chewie

I ACHE: for.... more shoes

I ALWAYS: think about going back to Spain

I AM NOT: perfect.... but always right! Hahaha!!!!

I DANCE: when happy, pissed and when I hear groove armada!

I SING: happy and sad songs

I CRY: over silly things and when Chewie and I argue about my silly-ness and craziness

I WRITE: Chewie's name on every paper that I see at work

I WIN: most times.... at anything..

I LOSE: interest at really boring things and people

I NEED: to be more more patient and calm and understanding

I SHOULD: exercise and eat healthy all the time


[YES OR NO]

You keep a diary: used to... have my blog now

You have a secret journal: used to....

You set your watch a few minutes fast: i think its either 5 or 10 minutes ahead

You bite your fingernails: no

You believe in love: yes.... i'm a believer!



[DO YOU]

Take a shower everyday: yes

Want to get married: yes

Have any tattoos/where?: no

Piercings/where?: ears


[FAV]

NUMBER: 10

COLOR: yellow

DAY: fridays

MONTH: May

SONG: all of my life by For Real

SEASON: I love summer at the costa del sol....

SPORT: soccer

DRINK: red wine, and spanish wines... healthy drink-carrot juice

VEGGIE: anything except for eggplant!

FRUIT: watermelon and bannana

FAST FOOD: not really a big fan... though i dont mind the occassional oporto's



[IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU]

HELPED SOMEONE? counseled Anita

BOUGHT SOMETHING? yoga clothes

GOTTEN SICK? after eating pizza hut last monday x(

GONE TO THE MOVIES? Sunday with Mike

GONE OUT FOR DINNER? not lately...

SAID "I LOVE YOU"? to Chewie

WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? everyday.... proposals!!

TALKED TO AN EX? haha!! every single day... morning, afternoon and night!

MISSED AN EX? I miss Chewie.....

WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? my blog-yes

TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU HAD A CRUSH ON? I still like Mike

MISSED SOMEONE? yes... Chewie

HUGGED SOMEONE? Mike

 

KISSED SOMEONE? Mike

FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? nope

FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? nope


[WOULD YOU EVER]

1. Eat a bug? nope!

2. Bungee jump? nope!

3. Hang glide? Yes

4. Kill someone? thats too violent

5. Have sex with someone you don't love? only if its johnny depp or jude law!

6. Kiss someone of the same sex? yes-done it before... a few times actually!

7. Parachute from a plane? Yes... done it and will do it again!!!

8. Walk on hot coals? wouldnt mind

9. Go out with someone for their looks? when i was young i used to do that a lot!

10. For their reputation? nope

11. Be a vegetarian? i tried... but i love steak and seafood!

12. Wear plaid with stripes? oh gosh no!!!

13. Instant Message a stranger guess? i think so....

14. Sing karaoke? yes

15. Get drunk? yes

16. Shoplift? nope

17. Run a red light? yes

...-=Skype=-...

I love Skype! It's great using it! The fact that I can call my friends overseas for free and sms them for a few cents.. Yay!!! It was nice talking to Carolina again (hello darling!) and will be chatting with my friends again later tonight (morning in Spain).