...-=Poznan, Poland=-...

I like Poland. After leaving London, I havent had much dramas, except for waiting for the country train from Gdansk to Poznan for 3 hours and travelling by train to Poznan for 4 hours, I was okay with it. I was amazed by how beautiful Poland's country side is. Trees everywhere, lots of flowers and everyone on the train was so nice. I was hoping that I can speak Polis as everybody was so helpful. From helping me carry my 24K luggage to telling me where to get off... only problem was I cant really understand them as they dont speak English so we tried to communicate by sign language. Some of the younger ones know some English so that wasnt so bad. But I was overwhelmed by how warm they were to me! Have I told you... I was the only Asian on the train so imagine how strange that was for me!!!

Mamuska was also so very warm. And it was also so good to see Peter again.... Iris' fiance. Saba the dog... is so beautiful! I wish you'd meet them all. Everyone here is so nice.

Anyway, I'll tell you more about Poland on my next entry. There are more better things to do than go on the internet! :)

I miss each and everyone of you....

Take care and lots of love from Poznan... xxx

...-=Crazy Night-Crazy London=-...

So... I was going to post something here yesterday but was so buggered so didnt had the time as I took a long nap... then went out to go to International. It's like The Establishment in Sydney and I really liked it. We got a free tab cos of our friend Marko and so we got smashed drinking caipirovska the whole night! Also met 2 guys... Prash.... who's south african and is still a baby.... he'll be turning 21 next week and shame we cant go to his bday party. And Richard... he's English and 35 y/o. He's a managing director of a big company here and he gave me his card but I forgot to bring it with me so I wouldnt be able to write it down for now... but he's nice and cute and very very cheeky.... I LIKE! :p We will be meeting up again tonight for drinks as I gave him my number and yes.... we will be keeping in touch! We were having drinks from 9PM till 2:30AM and it was just great talking to him.... and yes.... we did pashed! :p

Oh well.... it's been a crazy week and we will be leaving London on Sunday. Will be going to Poland straight now as someone fucked up my trip to Sweden... but dont want to talk about it now as I'm happy and stress-free at the moment. No dramas yet.... and I'm crossing my fingers that there will be no more dramas for the rest of my trip.

Anyway... miss you all and hope everyone's doing great! Will post more of my adventure soon....

Love from London... xxx

...-=Crazy London=-...

How funny is it that you really learn about life when you travel by yourself! I've learned so many things about life and other people and even about myself the past 3 days that I've been here. Seriously, it's not all just fun and games at the moment, well the past couple of days anyway. We had to move out of Laura's house cos she was jealous of me and Iris being friends... she sorta kicked us out and we had to find a place to stay. It was a bit rough but hey we managed! We stayed at this shabby place on my 2nd night having this big arguement with Iris... I so wanted to go back home... but things worked out well the next day... with some 'minor' problems. Marko came to the rescue... and oh.... Donny boy... These 2 guys have been so helpful and I will never forget them for the rest of my life!

We went out last night... we went to this poshy place and met this Macedonian guy named Romeo... gosh he's HOT!!!! He bought us a couple of drinks and invited us to come back on Saturday and party with Pharell and the Detroit basketball team from America! So... yes... we will be coming back! There was also this English guy who wanted to join us... we said NO... girls night tonight! But he still bought us drinks anyway... so me & Iris got totally smashed! :P

Anyway.... will tell you more about my adventure... dont have enough time at the moment and we have to go do the touristy thing now.

And oh.... to the crazy guy who got angry cos of what I wrote about him.... you know I dont mean it and I was only angry when I wrote it and how can I mean when I love you..????

Miss you all.....

Love from London....xxx

...-=London=-...

I'm now in sunny(?) London.... It's not too bad this place, though a bit weird. I dont mind it though. it rains every half an hour or so then the sun will shine again. Lots of nice places to go too though really havent started yet.... though I've been around Soho with Iris.

I had some dramas at Heathrow airport and no.... they didnt think I was a terrorist! My luggage somehow fell into pieces when in transit in Dubai and I got lost looking for the tube from the airport! How awful.... but then I thought... what an experience... at least I've got more stories to tell you all.

Do I miss Sydney..? No not yet.... I'm still looking forward exploring London and Sweden and Poland and Spain and Gibraltar..??? Yes, I'll be going to Gibraltar too as my aunt and Grandma is staying there at the moment.

Anyway, I'll write more about my adventure soon.... and try to post pictures here too. I'm just at the internet cafe in Oxford St.

Keep you all posted.

...-=How To Heal A Broken Heart=-...

I got this from that cool website: Dontdatehimgirl.com It's a pretty cool poem.

Day OneBuy one twelve pack.

Buy one large Pizza.

Buy one half gallon of Ice Cream.

Drink all the beer.

Eat all the pizza.

Go to bed and sleep for a few hours.

Eat all the ice cream.

Now you are sober.

Day twoBuy a twelve pack of beer

Buy a large pizza

Drink twelve pack

Go to bed

Eat pizza when you wake up

Now your sober

Day three

Buy a twelve pack of beer

Drink all the beer

Go to bed.

Day four

Buy a fifth of whiskey

Take a few shots

Go to bed

Day Five

Take a few more shots of whiskey

Go to bed

Day Six

Take a few more shots of whiskey

Go to bed

Day seven

Drink the rest of the whiskey

go to Bed.

Hurt is all gone and you have gained 20 pounds.

In the event that you puke your guts up the pain then stops right there because you wont be drinking the next day.

When the pain is gone go look for a new man or woman and get on with it.

...-=DontDateHim.Com=-...

Whilst her waiting for my mum to finish doing her shopping, I was reading this article on Marie Claire and thought hmmm... this is pretty interesting! Bitter ex-girlfriends writing about their ex-boyfriends in this really cool website:

I was thinking.... since breaking up with Mark and thinking how insensitive he is... will it be enough reason to put his details on this website??? Will I be so mean by doing it..??? Well, lets see... Last January he said that his ex from France is coming back. I was stupid to say well she's not here yet and I'm not leaving till later this year so.... Then around April, May he was still telling me about her and me being stupid again said.. we'll break up a month before I leave... We eventually broke up earlier June... And now.... he's seeing someone new! And yes... the girl from France is still coming back for him. Okay.... how does that make sense? Did he lie to me..? Well I know he's lying to her now. Do I feel sorry for her...? Hmm... I dont actually care about her so I dont give a shit. It's mostly about what he did to me that's making me wonder about his behaviour.... He's been nice and generous to me though. Found me a place when I was homeless for a week. Helped me with boxes when I was moving out. Was my shoulder to cry on when I was depressed about being homeless.... BUT.... I was still cut by what he did!!! I was so hurt the fact that he didnt tell most of his friends about us being a couple. Hurt by the fact that he never appreciated the things I did for him (why did you stay by my side when I was ill?)! DUH!!! Cut by the fact that he has moved on after a couple of weeks... He even told me that he loves me just a few weeks back!!!!! Fuckin Prick! See... now I'm angry again! Okay...... Maybe I should calm down. I've got so many evil thoughts in my mind (like putting up a profile of him on adultgaymatchmaker.com.au) but I'm trying to just let it go. Besides what's the worst thing that can happen...??? I'm not the kind of person who keeps grudges.... as soon as I'm over the pain then I'll be okay and happy again. Do I wish him happiness in life...? Yes sure.... Do I still like him? Well, I cant lie... maybe I still do love him... but after writing this post.... gosh.... didnt know what a loser he is!!! He only thinks about the good things that he's done but never about the bad things! Always the hero... never the villain! Well.... I'm just glad I'm not with him anymore. I'm off to my great adventure and just looking forward to greener pastures with healthy cows... good looking sheeps and nice blue skies... fresh air and hmmmm... nice milk!!! Lol!!! I've gone crazy.... but despite of my craziness... I will not put Mark's profile on this website... regardless if they're all cool chicks! Let his bitches find out for themselves how mean he can be.. that old, dirty and daggy man!!!!

...-=A Song For You=-...

When You Love Someone

Anita Baker

Were we ever, did we use it up too fast

Our great moments never met to last

And the last thing that I wantIs to ever make your smile go away

Keep the memories take the best of what we had

I can't stand to watch what once was great go bad

And if I can't be with you

Then I rather just remember what we knew

When you love someone

And you love them with your heart

And it doesn't disappear if you're apart

When you love someone

And you've done all you can do - you've done all you can

When you set them free

And if that love is true

When you love someone

It will all come back to you

Nights I wondered was I too much that we gave

If we gave in more could we have both been saved

And I guess we have crossed the line

Never knowing what was yours

And what was mine

And through it all, I still have no regrets

Just promise me - promise me

You never will forget - you never will forget

When I loved you, I never asked or expected anything from you. I was happy just spending time with you, laughing with you, just feeling with you. Things happens for a reason. And it is hard... but I'm letting you go, cos I love you.... will always do..... With all my heart... all my soul... I was happy just having you, being with you... But now it's time to let go. It's so hard but I have to go. If I come back and you're still there... Then maybe... just maybe, the love was meant to stay....

...-=The Power Of Now=-...

I was given this book as my farewell present. Well... it's more of me asking for it really as I didnt stop bothering Phil for it. Eventually, I got the book, a pair of blue thongs for walking around London and a small map of London so i wont get lost (just have to make sure I learn how to read maps!!!) The book was recommended by my spiritual adviser Mark (who is a bit of a nut-case sometimes, a firecracker in other times... I'm just waiting for him to finish reading the book and see if it made any changes in him). Anyway... back to the book... It's called The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle. It has been read by a lot of famous people including Meg Ryan and Oprah Winfrey. It has had good reviews and is an International Bestseller. I started reading it last Saturday morning. I dont know, I wasnt really bored but just decided to wake up early, make myself a nice cup of tea and sit under the sun and read it. It made me realise that I should stop thinking too much and just focus on what I was doing. Try to appreciate life more. Stop dwelling on the past and stop worrying about the future. Just focus on the NOW.

Sunday was a testing day for me. I got myself into trouble... abused someone (and I am really sorry... I have already apologised to you a dozen times and thank you for granting me pardon...xxx) for believing other peoples opinion about him. It did hurt... everything that they said about him. Even though it was all in the past... it did hurt me. But after reading the book again this morning, it made me realise... if I wasnt living in the past, those comments wouldn't have bothered me as I am now living in the present and have moved on (well... sorta anyway... I still love him and he knows that... well I think anyway...). The fact that he has done so much for me last week... i shouldn't have believed and let my emotions run and control myself. I wasnt focusing... I started thinking about the past.... and most times they are disastrous. One thing that I've learnt is to stop thinking too much and just focus on the NOW... therefore I can achieve my goals without any problems... any pains... Therefore will have a better future... hopefully with less pain too. See now.... I'm thinking about the future again... It will take time for me to become a better Buddha. Intense presence will do that and regular practice of meditation will help me achieve it... It made me realise so many things.. how small things that we do most times is quite destructive. Little things that we get so hooked on is not healthy... it can be addictive and once again harmful to us. Our ego isnt really important and time is only an illusion. You're probably thinking that I've gone crazy... well, I like meditating and this book helps. It calms me down and makes me feel at peace with myself. Lately I'm getting bad anxiety attacks cos of my upcoming travel to Europe and it has been driving me crazy!!! But since continuing reading the book... even the loudest person on the train on my way home tonight didnt even bother me. I like this book and thanks to Mark for recommending it to me. I'm hoping to finish reading the book or just continue reading it when I'm lying on the beach at Malaga.... I recommend that you get a copy too.... Then who knows you might thank me for it too.

Just 4 more days and I'm outta here... Europe... here I come!!!

...-=13 More Days=-...

And now the countdown begins.... In less down 2 weeks I'll be going. I'm feeling a bit nervous because I'm not used to not being around my comfort zone.

I'll be leaving Sydney... gosh... So weird how a few months ago I was hating Sydney so much! Whingeing about so many things.... too hot, too many flies, too many morons, too many dickheads.... and now that I'm leaving Sydney... I'm starting to love it again. It's like being in a relationship really! You dont appreciate your partner not till he/she is gone or going away.

But really... I'll be back again. Sunny Sydney... my favourite city.

For now.... I'll just enjoy my last few days here and cant wait to start on my great adventure!!!

PS:

Dont really like living at my parents house. It's true what they say... Once you start living by yourself, it'll be hard to live with your family again. I mean I dont mind staying here for the weekend every now and then.. but for a week...?? Oh gosh.... it just causes too much trouble...!!! I miss having my own place again. I am a homeless person... with lotsa shoes, lotsa clothes, lotsa things.... all those things except for a house... I miss my own bed... I miss having my own space....

...-=Back to Base=-...

I'm back to my parents house now... I've left Haberfield today. I was a bit sad as I've had so many good memories with Mark even with most of my friends. The place where I get ready before going out to my parties, the place where I chill out when I'm coming down and hung over... The place where I contemplate when I'm confused. At the same time it's a good thing as it's the start of thenew chapter in my life.

I'm staying over my parents house at the moment and then will be staying over Anita's house this week. It's also my last week at work this week and will be having dinner with my close friends and just have a good time. Try to have a good weekend as it'll be my last weekend here in Sydney with my girlfriends and close friends.

See if I'll get my pounding... wish me luck! *wink*wink*

He he he he.....